What a long and emotional night.

Me and Barbara sat outside for about an hour. Both just sobbing. Her crying over Ben, me crying about everything. This boy that is on my mind, Wesley, My past. I miss Wesley and it is REALLY hitting me tonight. I don't know why it didn't hit me til now. I am really upset about it. I am just now BALLING my eyes out. I can't believe he is really gone! It just blows my mind. Then there is this stupid boy, that I can not get over, for the life of me. I hate BOYS, like I keep saying, I need a man. Hahah. Lastly, my past, I was just thinking about all the crap my mom has put me through. I haven't realized how crazy my life was when I lived with her. I was a mess, My life was a mess. I am so thankful for the Carlson's. I wish my mom would have a change of heart. She hates me going to church, but I'm not about to change my amazing decision, to follow her crappy ones. No Thank You! Haha.